Within the reality we live in, there are sub-realities of our own making. They ripple out from each of us, forming a web of possibilities. Not quite the string theory. Only forming as it relates to each of us and our actions, thoughts and feelings. Understanding our part in how things unfold is critical for positive change.
Sometimes I feel stuck in two or more sub-realities as well as the one I share with others. This is a difficult place and it gets harder to “connect the dots”. And it’s harder to follow along with the story line that is my life. It’s hard to participate in life, and yet see it all happening around me.
When stuck in this different perception, it’s important for me to find peace, be alone and journal and try to figure out what is going on in my thoughts, actions and feelings and to see if I mesh. This process can take days, weeks and sometimes months. And Spring seems to be the season.
And although this perception may seem fundamental, it is very tangible with me. People start changing how they speak and act and seem to communicate what I need to hear, at the moment I need to hear it. Animals also exhibit odd, human-like behaviors that have meaning for me.
Does that me me crazy?

Why the mystery of words, when speaking is so much easier.  And sometimes I think we talk too much, too.  And that very little words are necessary.  Being is so much easier than trying to be.

I had an odd dream last night.  The place was similar to earth, but the animals were strange looking.  The people didn’t have the same belief system. There was no belief system.  The place was uncomplicated, yet chaotic.

My thoughts are lumbering and massive today.  So, I started thinking that having faith can make things both complicated and chaotic.  As humans try to make sense of this world and find that they cannot fully understand, even more effort is put into interpreting science, ancient texts, prophesies, petroglyphs, signs and dreams.  Too much effort and energy is devoted to this in my opinion.

The peaceful natives of our land have it right.  Working together, being at peace with the animals and environment.  Simple.  Easy.

These things make perfect sense to me.  And I am not fearful of my new perception.  I am…free to think my own thoughts.   I am… sure these thoughts are transient and will not last forever.  I am… not crazy.  No fear.

There is no fear even though I may have come to the wrong conclusions.  I am not embarassed or humiliated if I am wrong.  I am clear that it’s okay to experience these thoughts as part of a process.   And that the universe is okay with me thinking these thoughts.  I will not be struck down for my somewhat heretical views.  It’s going to be okay.

Look at nature.  It just is.  Look at humans.  We are not just being, we are always in conflict.  This tells me we are the newcomers to earth.  Not the most intelligent.  Maybe we are just the most arrogant for thinking we know it all.  For thinking we are superior to all life forms, that we have all the answers.  If the latter were true, wouldn’t the earth be in better shape than it is?  Sheesh, what a mess we’ve created.  Working, always working.  More money, less time.  Heart and health issues.

Some belief systems have harnessed this peace.   Perhaps it is time I learned.

Who determined right from wrong? Sane from insane?  Who has the right to make these judgements?  Shouldn’t we let God decide? How do we do this?  Why not just ask for His help?  Sounds simple, right?  It’s about making a conscience contact with him daily, perhaps several times a day, to ask for His help in all things.  You only need to ask.  He’s waiting for you to talk to him to guide you, nurture and protect you.

When your intent and your heart are in the right place magical things happen.  All evil and injustice are overcome.  You forgive and love again. Ask for his help humbly.  He is here, He is now.  Always.